Spending my time

days turn months
months turned into year
in the journey of time
came true, what i fear
What i wanted, i could not get
I could not win, no matter where i bet

All that was left to
was give in and fail
While life was about to,
its grand plan, unveil
If only i had
walked a little more
if only i had swam,
i would have found the shore
now there is no closure
everything is unclear
i cannot see my future
i think, i need a seer

i failed at everything
where i wanted to succeed
I did not learn from my mistakes
but, to my loved ones i plead
Better than doing nothing
is to do one or two deed
keep on pushing, keep on trying
i dont want you to go to sleep,
to your self, while lying

I know it would not
make sense to you now
your insecurities are deep-rooted
long time back, they were plow(ed)
Dont give up, keep running
even when, nothing, you can see
You just keep your mind alive
You can be what you want to be