Lesson in life

A lesson learnt
A history made
all i wish for is that
my mistakes do not fade

I hated myself for
lying to you everyday
i just wanted to keep
my feelings at bay
I didnt want to hurt you
i swear, i didnt
i promised to you,
hurt you, i wouldn't

Your heart is mine
but my heart isnt your
I think i want someone
who cannot be here, i am sure
She floats in the ocean
I am locked in the land
She wants to wander
but that i cant

i never thought, i would want someone
whose heart was of someone i know
Is it ok to go with my heart
or to the customs, should i bow

I will keep wondering
What i want and what i need
In front of you both
to show me the way, i plead