My Girl

I am in love with this girl
who doesnt know i exist
For me its all clear as a sun
for her, its nothing but miles of mist

Her name should be perfect
because she is what i say she is
You would know who is she
Her smile, her laugh, you cannot miss

She brings light in the life
even the blinds can see
She is like a box of mysteries
All i wish for is the key

Whenever she would talk
even the deaf want to hear
When you hold her hand
There is nothing, you would fear

When she puts her hand on someone
even the cripple would start walking
when she kisses someone
even the mute starts talking

All i want that
she looks my way
All i wish for is that
She listens to what i want to say
I would tell her
She is for whom i pray
And if she would say yes
her each command, i would obey

My Melancholy

I cannot stand and
you ask me to run
All i see is melancholy
and you say to have fun

Nothing I have, in
my life to live for
No matter how hard i swim
I cannot see the shore

Sometimes I get tired
and ask myself to give in
There should be more stories
in failures than in wins

I should go out as a failure
like the way i was born to be
There is no such thing as
you can be what you want to be

We start with wanting more
but end up settling for what we get
We cover our loses
on both sides, we bet

All i can say while i say my goodbyes
No truth in the world can cover any lies

Trust me when I say that
never to smile when you are sad
you can never take back
what long time back, you said

Be an asshole, be a sociopath
they have the easiest of life
they can smile ear to ear
while they stab you with a knife

About me

I hate you for keeping me awake
I hate you for keeping me distracted
I hate you for what you did to me
I hate you for how you acted

I cannot forget when
you left me hanging
When you didnt open the door
all night, I was banging

Maybe you are evil
Maybe you are wise
Maybe you are what
god made you in his eyes

So are you good
or maybe I expect too much
Can it be it's all my fault
to make you my crutch

I wonder if it's all true
what people say about me
Maybe I see in people
What I want them to be

Lesson in life

A lesson learnt
A history made
all i wish for is that
my mistakes do not fade

I hated myself for
lying to you everyday
i just wanted to keep
my feelings at bay
I didnt want to hurt you
i swear, i didnt
i promised to you,
hurt you, i wouldn't

Your heart is mine
but my heart isnt your
I think i want someone
who cannot be here, i am sure
She floats in the ocean
I am locked in the land
She wants to wander
but that i cant

i never thought, i would want someone
whose heart was of someone i know
Is it ok to go with my heart
or to the customs, should i bow

I will keep wondering
What i want and what i need
In front of you both
to show me the way, i plead

Spending my time

days turn months
months turned into year
in the journey of time
came true, what i fear
What i wanted, i could not get
I could not win, no matter where i bet

All that was left to
was give in and fail
While life was about to,
its grand plan, unveil
If only i had
walked a little more
if only i had swam,
i would have found the shore
now there is no closure
everything is unclear
i cannot see my future
i think, i need a seer

i failed at everything
where i wanted to succeed
I did not learn from my mistakes
but, to my loved ones i plead
Better than doing nothing
is to do one or two deed
keep on pushing, keep on trying
i dont want you to go to sleep,
to your self, while lying

I know it would not
make sense to you now
your insecurities are deep-rooted
long time back, they were plow(ed)
Dont give up, keep running
even when, nothing, you can see
You just keep your mind alive
You can be what you want to be

Tell me your story

What is your story
you can tell me, my dear
Talk to me about your day
or about the things that you fear
tell me what makes you smile
or what brings out your tears
what do you think of the past
or how would you live your years

I am waiting to hear,
what you aspire to be.
what do you like to listen to,
which place do you want to see.
about all the things that
you wish you had,
about the times when
you think you were bad

I could never get bored
of listening to your stories
i just hope, by talking to me
alleviated are your worries
I just want you to just be you
and the world will crumble
Even the almighty god
bows before people so humble

It's You vs My Future

How do i stop myself
from thinking about you?
when I cant even think of
a single thing wrong about you

I have to, no, i need to
come up with something soon
Or i will keep on thinking about you
from morning till noon

Maybe you talked too much,
Maybe you didnot talk at all
Maybe you did not let me in
by building a damn wall
Maybe you did not like my song,
Maybe you had a different smile
If i could just remember one bad thing,
Maybe I would sleep for a while

Why did you have to be
so perfect all the time
may be that was the reason
you will never be mine
somehow it is fate
that you and me are not we
Maybe someone is saying
do not believe what you see

What, you think, is good for you
may turn out to be bad
May be to be happy in future
first you have to be sad

:Ishant

Empathetic Sociopath

He wants to bring peace 
in the world by clearing the path
All the while taking care 
of all anomalies with his wrath

This is the story 
of an empathetic sociopath

He is born of love 
That is too much to bear
He has forgotten the familiar 
He has grown close to his fear 

Fear of bad taking over
Fear of the end of duality
Fear of loving the dark
Fear of accepting the insanity

It was bad when he felt anything
While smiling with every kind smile
Don't know how it will work
When empathy is gone
And the sapling of indifference
Covers the whole lawn

:Ishant