Need A Reason To Go On

Anything i ever wanted 
or ever had is now gone
I cant do this anymore
I have no reason to go on

The future i don't know
And present i cant control
I do not understand this world
I do not understand my role
This confusion, this powerlessness
Now Has taken its toll
My body wants to fight
But it is getting difficult for my soul

Everything goes right till
In the end where it all goes wrong
As soon as i build or arrange a block
A little later nothing is where it should belong

I wonder sometimes is this life
Really a gift or god just was looking for fun
Was it given to us to cherish
Or was it god's best pun

In the end i want to say this to god
I have fought many battles but none i have won
Give me a sign, tell me where this life headed
Because right now i am desperately looking for a reason to go on