Saying and Not Saying

I am walking up to you

And my heart starts to pound

I cannot hear anything else 

Only can hear my footsteps sound

I searched around inside

Gathered all the courage i need

Thought Once listen to my heart

Let's see where does it lead

I may not be what you want

But it's you my heart desire

My mind may lie to everyone

But my heart is not a liar

My heart waited for this moment for days

While my mind listed pros and con

But this time i knew it was different

This time my heart was the king not a pawn

So here i am standing in front of you

Saying everything i always wanted to say

All of a sudden i realize i am quiet

And i said everything in my mind on the way

Now i speak and what comes out is

That i am sorry, this time again

You say it is all fine and

I walk away with something called "pain"

:Ishant